When dark things roil in my mind
I feel the surfaces go still and placid
and I know there is more underlying
than the appearance of quiet.
And I don’t need any chemical to numb out
a simple lack of sleep will suffice just fine
and inside my sleeplack foggedmind
it’s like my dream. with the distance obscured
otherwise blank and white wall in all directions
dazed awake and sleep walking
melancholy struck and desireless.
Reason 2719 why I have to make sure to remember I need sleep and food on a regular basis. I wander right from disregulation to dissociation if I don't do those things.